He watches over each of His sparrows. And He watches over me.



Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Once Again!

     I have been determined not to let the second month pass before posting again. I am just barely making that goal!
     In the weeks prior to starting this blog I was Moses - telling God I did not have the words and simply could not do this.  Then once I got the nerve to jump out there and go for it I quickly turned into Peter and after being elated about "walking on water" and being very proud of myself I promptly fell in and got all wet!
     So now I think I have dried off enough to try this again with a lot more humility and understanding that this is not an idle endeavor. Whoever reads these words will be impacted by them and the words will only come from me when God tells me what to say and when to say it.
    I have been reading other blogs and am so impressed with them. The designs are awesome and the subject matter is incredible. I should warn you that I am not yet very cyber literate and my design will most likely stay quite simple and unadorned for a bit until I become more familiar with what I am doing. I am reluctant to press too many buttons for fear of what may result. For now I seem to have found a design and color scheme that is pleasing, so I will stay with that.
    So, what to write about this night. For the last three weeks there has been a small, seemingly minor happening in my life that has come to mind and I think I am being led to share it. A few weeks ago during a casual conversation with a friend on a widow's group on facebook the word patience was mentioned in regard to getting over the grief caused by the death of our spouses. This friend said it was too bad patience was not a four letter word and I immediately had the thought "but  it is - it's called "wait".
     Shortly thereafter I remembered a spring afternoon much like the one we had today when my hubby and I were sitting outside watching all the sparrows busily tending to their nests and their young.  We were often privledged to see the young emerge from their nests and taught how to fly by their parents.  This particular day a little one did come out of the nest but after fluttering clumsily to the ground it was apparent she (my choice of pronoun 'cause I'm a she) was not ready to fly. She did not appear to be in any distress but sparrows are supposed to fly and she wasn't, therefore it was obvious something was wrong. We watched for a while and I became quite concerned, although hubby said let her be - she'll fly when she is ready. So to keep her safe from our dog I gently picked her up and placed her in a part of the yard that we had fenced off. For the next couple of hours I checked on her frequently. She appeared to be fine and would give me a "chirp" when I came near but simply sat there patiently and waited observing the world around her. I got involved in something else for a while and when I went back to check on her she was gone. She obviously had flown away. Now at the time I did not see the significance of that incident or how it would give me meaning for this season I am in now. That little bird found herself shocked by finding herself in a new situation and a different "place"; just as I have found myself shocked by this state called "widowhood". Although my husband's death was not sudden it was still a shock for me to find myself here in a world that is so very much different for me. I know I will need to get my wings ready to fly and I have been struggling these last almost ten months to get up there and soar but have not yet been able to do so. There have been some brief, very short flights but I always come back to that safe spot to rest because I get worn out and am just not ready. The little sparrow on the other hand did not try to fly at all - she simply waited patiently until she knew she had the strength and when she was ready she took off and went into her new life with gusto. Now I really understand Isaiah 40:29 & 31 - He gives power to those who are tired and worn out; He offers strength to the weak. Those who wait on the Lord will find new strength. They will fly high on wings like eagles. So wherever you are little sparrow fly high and strong. You taught me a valuable lesson.
    Are you waiting for something as well? May I humbly suggest you be as that little sparrow and take advantage of the resting place where you find yourself these days. I am content in not using my wings until God says "go" because then I know they will truly be strong enough to take me where He wants me to be. He has a plan for our lives and when He is ready He will show us.
    Blessings dear ones.

14 comments:

  1. Excellent! Very well put. I am proud of you :)

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    1. Thank you! Sorry for the late response. Something went awry with the automatic notice for comments.

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  2. Thank you Linda. You were able to capture this moment in this season of your life with poignancy by placing yourself in the middle of another story. Keep writing. It is a redemptive outlet where God comes and enlarges our imaginations and we are able to let loose that creativity through writing.

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    1. Thanks so much Sandy. I appreciate the encouraging words.

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  3. tweet tweet. from one sparrow to another...keep tweeting!

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    1. That I will do Marty! I am determined to keep on singing! Thanks!

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  4. What a wonderful picture you have painted with your words. Thank you for sharing your heart and showing us how God is moving in your life. Keep up the good work,for the Lord is going to bless it in a mighty way! EC

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    1. Thank you dear friend. This is a really enjoyable experience. I am so grateful to our Lord for using me.

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  5. What a beautiful message from the Lord. I'm so glad to find you blog, and I'll look forward to waiting with you for your wings. God has days of beauty and wonder ahead!

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    1. Thanks Ferree! A year ago this is the last place I thought I would be and now look at what God has done!

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  6. What a wonderful story you have shared from God. He is amazing! I will fly around and check out this perch often. Keep up the good work! :)

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    1. Thank you! Yes our God is truly amazing isn't He. Blessings in your flight!

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  7. I have been widowed just 16 weeks and am still very raw, but God is good and with His grace, I will get through this tunnel of grief. I want to share my bird story with you. When my husband and I got up that fateful morning last fall, preparing to meet with the oncologist who would outline the plan of treatment and prognosis, we were very sober and filled with trepidation. I can see it yet: he was standing at the bar looking over the morning's paper. He had not yet dressed and there on his shoulder I spied something small and white. As I went to remove it, I discovered it was a tiny feather. Instantly my mind went to Psalm 91:4. I showed my husband the feather and tucked it away as a reminder of God's comforting presence. We both mused over the fact that we had neither feather pillows or a down comforter on our bed. Throughout the brief 79 days of his illness, our minds frequently dwelt on that small white reminder of God's grace. And since his death God had has been so merciful, revealing himself to me in so many ways. About two months after my husband's death, his friend Rick and I were going through his possessions, cataloging and itemizing things. We ended up at his truck and had just finished going through a box of work tools and were standing in the sunlight of that beautiful Saturday morning, pensive and tearful. Rick suddenly pointed skyward, exclaiming, "Look up there!" And there in that beautiful blue, early spring sky soaring in circles directly over our heads, low enough that I could see it turning its head from side to side and even hearing its cry, was a mature bald eagle. I had known that about two years ago an eagle's nest was spotted not too far away from our home, but although I had longed to, I had not yet seen any bird...until now. Immediately our hearts lightened and we laughed aloud in the delight of realizing God's sending us a reminder of His love and care.

    Just thought I would like to share.

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    1. Dear Judy - thank you for your touching story. I am so very sorry that you have found yourself starting this grieving process just 16 weeks ago. There are many of us walking this road as well. If you would like to "hear" from more of us please continue to contact me through the blog. Or if you haven't already found it check out WidowsChristianPlace - this is a site run by Ferree Hardy and has truly been a blessing to me and so many others. I would love to hear from you again - Blessings to you dear sister - you are so very much loved.

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